On the First Quarter of 2017

  1. I feel deeply. I always knew this, but I always tried to stop myself. Words have failed me when trying to describe how I feel.
  2. I have an excessive amount of anxiety and it makes my life difficult. I tend to ignore it.
  3. I am scared of being visible. When people recognize me I wonder do they see me. Is it safe to show them my most authentic self?
  4. I am learning what love I will accept and what is unacceptable. My boundaries are not quite set and I have opened myself up to more hurt because of it. I have also learned how truly deep my capacity for care and love is. I do not wish to set boundaries that will lessen my capacity for love.
  5. I have not learned enough about how to be a healthy friend. I have not learned enough about how to invest in friendships more than romance.
  6. I have a deep empathetic kinship with Black women. I’m not free until we’re all free.
  7. I only internalize compliments from the people who probably don’t deserve my time.
  8. I deeply crave creative community that reflects me, my experiences and sees my potential.
  9. I am so powerful. Yes that does still scare me.
  10. I am still searching for God in new ways. I have yet to believe in His love for me and that is probably the root of all problems.

1 thought on “On the First Quarter of 2017

  • This. Resonates. So. Deeply.#3 is probably one of the bigger ones always causing me to be anxious is almost every social situation/interaction I have.

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